多年前看的电影”断背山“,现在想想当时真的没有看懂,或者没有理解。后来有段时间,有蛮多的Gay题材的电影,情感都描写很细腻。记忆中的“The Kids are alright"有个happy ending; "a Single Man"却是肝肠寸断。
今年奥斯卡提名电影 “ Call me by your name“一部非常催人泪下的电影。故事发生在1983年夏天意大利北部一个小山村。Elio, 一个犹太血统的17岁男孩,教授父亲邀请了一个美国犹他青年24岁的Oliver来做暑假短期的研究助手,住在他们家里。闲适,世外桃源的意大利夏天的小山庄,两人坠入了爱河。为躲避世人的眼目,爱得强烈伴着些许辛苦。两人相约 “ Call me by your name "。
难能可贵的是最后父亲的那段话:
"Then let me say one more thing. It'll clear the air. I may have come close, but I never had what you two have. Something always held me back or stood in the way. How you live your life is your business, just remember, our hearts and our bodies are given to us only once. And before you know it, your heart is worn out, and, as for your body, there comes a point when no one looks at it, much less wants to come near it. Right now, there's sorrow, pain. Don't kill it and with it the joy you've felt."
我想这对父母更多的是鼓励他他们之间的爱是真实的,美丽的初恋情感并不是每个人有幸能得到的。
最后的场景剧透了:在犹太人的圣诞节(Hannaka)时,回到美国的Oliver给Elio家打电话过节问候时告诉Elio他不久准备结婚的消息......然后两人都呼唤着自己的名字,Call me by your name,那段情不变。挂上电话,Elio在壁炉前泪流不止,那样的痛,正如他父亲所说的the sorrow and pain with the joy。
现在工作的地方有个女同事新近结婚,我们都没有参加,但头那天关照特别装扮了她的办公室,大家纷纷向她祝贺,她的wife常常下班过来和她一起搭车回家,时而还看到她们俩走廊里的亲昵举动,我有时忍不住会说“ you guys are too cute! ”,这时我常常想起我的过世的同学。最近和同事wife有机会聊天,说起孩子,她很坦诚,她过去有过婚姻,俩孩子比我的都大一点。