I am very much saddened by your situation and cried after reading your post. I can imagine there got to be many "why's" in your mind right now. But the reality is whatever happened, we have to put our life back together and move forward. If I were you, I would do two things: 1. Dig as much as I could for "why" but not get depressed by not having the answer I thought it would be. (It was clear that the first answer we wanted to hear is there was a malpractice by OB. But it may or may not be the case.) I had a miscarriage 3 years ago (no heartbeat at week 12) and I was not satisfied by the answer given by the doctor that it was just a bad embryo until years later I realized that it was probably the most likely case. Get all the medical records associated with this pregnancy, including all historic OB visit records, blood test records, Ultrasound records. Have the delivery OB document what was seen and what was done during delivery. You can use this to consult with other experts, such Association of OB, or even lawyer. It definitely won't change the end result, but it may help you feel better and get over your doubt. 2. Take good care of yourself. When it happened, it happened. Regardless how regretful we might be, we could not change the result. All you can do now is to get rest and take good care of yourself to be prepared for the next pregnancy. It took me 4 pregnancies to have a baby at age of 37. All I can say is time heals. My best wishes.